At school when they tried to bring me that razor blade I started to cry, and now I have no clue what to feel. im still crying. I cant feel happy. no one can make me feel happy. no one has shown me that I can be happy. I hold up a fake smile all of the time. it really ticks me off when people try to hard to do something that isn't going to happen. im still crying on the inside now I cant show my crying anymore. I have cried to much.. I didn't even think that was possible. Crying ok so what I show im happy.. in  front of the people around me. you only know how I feel I only show you. no one else. I should tell more but my story is in the progress. my story is to be shown soon.