I've been bullied for 2 years.  I've been called alot of bad names.  I've been called ugly and fat, stupid and worthless.  I'm a cutter, i have anxiety, eating disorder, suicidal.  I have no idea what to do...  since I met this one girl I thought id be best friends with her, but she's been doing most of the bullying.  always spreading rumours about me, texting me bad names and also saying it to my face.  just about 3 or 4 weeks ago she told me to kill myself.  I was going to listen to her, but I failed..  I've tried suicide 3 times.  i watched my grandmother die right infront of me, she was my last grandparent.  my grandfather (her husband) died 6 months before she did and this was her 3rd time having cancer.  then a month later my sister almost died cause she has had an eating disorder for 3 years and she cuts.  my parents are divorced and can't even be in a room for 2 seconds without screaming at eachother and breaking things.  I need help.  I have such low self esteem I can't even look at myself in the mirror without crying.  it's terrible and I'm ruining myself.