I'm a 16 year old female, I'm taller then most girls my age and I'm into things guys are into. When I started getting bullied it was in the 6th grade, I thought these people were my friends. We did everything together and had plenty of fun. They messages me and started asking questions that I didn't want to answer and they wouldn't leave me alone. The questions they were asking were "are you over weight?" "Are you ever gonna stop growing ?" And so on.... When school ended and summer started up everything was good no harsh comments or rude messages, I had a great summer. Now 7th grade started, made new friends and had a great start to the year till I started liking a boy, my friend also liked him so when I told her she flipped and started swearing at me calling me a "cunt, bitch. Whore, slut" and so on.. It got so bad to the point where she was telling me to kill meyself, and over a BOY! I switched schools hoping for a fresh start but I never got that fresh start. I walked threw the halls at lunch and at class change alone, people would see me alone and find it the perfect time to physically hurt me. I started cutting and tried several times to kill meyself. It happened all threw out grades 6-9th. I am now in high school. I've turned to smoking and doing drugs to help cope with the bullies, but I was arrested for procession of marijuana. I've also have had issues at home with my out bursts and swearing. My parents are scared to leave me alone with my younger sisters or even alone. I have random room searches to see if I have any drugs or anything I could harm myself with. I can't go out without fearing out or getting really paranoid that people are talking crap. I'm insecure about myself and I am afraid to show my face in public. I no longer play the sports I love because of the scars I am hiding. I am home schooled to protect myself and others safety. I've become a monster and its a punishment that should be given to the bully not the victim. I am 7 months clean of any drug or alcohol, I'm seeing people to help with the depression and anger and I'm now being let back into school cause I'm no longer a threat to the people around me. I only wish the bully knew what they did to me. I'm in my 11th year of high school and I'm on the Honor roll I have the highest grades in all my classes and I've been accepted into college with early in rollment.