I haven't really bullied too much but i have been picked on a little. In the first month or two of starting high school i had made a few new friends and they are the 'popular' people, i thought i was beginning to get a great social life for my age. For some reason, the boys in my year who got on the same bus as me started to call me names, usually ugly because i had a few zits. I didnt have acne or anything, it was literally about 3 or 4 zits on my face. They even made fun of me when i wasn't at school. They would ask my friends "where's Kirstie? is she at the hospital getting that spot removed cause its getting bigger than her face? Is she getting her face reconstructed?" The first few times they said things to me i wasn't too bothered by it but they just continued for so long and it seemed like it wouldn't end. My friends never really stood up for me, they just kinda let it happen. They didnt encourage them, but they didnt ask them to stop. Then the 'popular' people i was friends with started to hate me because I didnt know that one of them was actually adopted. It was the most ridiculous reason for them to start disliking me but that was why. I also fell out with my only friends over silly things that teenage girls fight over. I then had absolutely no friends and i was so angry and upset about everything. I would usually take it out on my brothers or my parents so i didnt really have a great relationship with anybody for about a year or two. I always talked about dying and suicide to my mom and it scared her, i mean i wasnt seriously contemplating it but it was always in the back of my mind. Thankfully, i found something that made me so happy. A band called Forever The Sickest Kids. Everything about them put a smile on my face, their music, the members personalities, and even seeing them laugh or smile made me smile too. Thanks to them i found out about other bands like them, for instance Our Last Night. These bands have songs about things like bullying and their message is basically saying that youre not alone and "you can make it to the sunrise". Hearing all this made me feel better about absolutely everything. I wanted to have the same attitude towards life as the band members do so i just put a smile on my face all the time, even if i wasnt happy, i would just smile. It changed my mood so much and i began to love my life again. It also helped me get better relationships with my family and i made some friends who truly appreciate me and i love them more than anything. So many people judge others for listening to bands like Our Last Night because they have screaming in their songs, but if people would just give them a chance and actually listen to their message, theyll realize that theyre actually really great, inspirational people. They mean a lot to me and im so thankful for them. If anybody is ever feeling really down, i would strongly recommend listening to a song called Sunrise by Our Last Night. Its absolutely beautiful.
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