I was always that girl everyone ignored or had an instant hate for, from the minute they saw me. I mean I was normal, tall, had hair that never looked perfect, a personality that could change just on how the weather was. It still happens today people refuse to sit by me, talk to me, ask me to join in on something, my friends have always and still are trying to find ways to leave me so they can be more popular. I should stop being friends with them but then I'd be completely alone and I think it'd be worse. I know people talk behind my back call me names, make fun of me, it hurts a lot because they don't know me and will never have the chance to because their to caught up in their social standings. Before I go all about explaining my problems nowadays I think I better share where it all began, in the girls locker room. It was about 4 or 5 years ago when I was in about grade 5 or 6. We just had gym and were coming back to get changed. I went over to where I put my clothes and I notice their not there. I ask around seeing if anyone knew and checked everywhere. As the change room starts to empty I see the garbage can in the corner, I don't know what drawed me there but that's when I saw my clothes sitting the garbage I pulled them out with the tears running down my face i quickly got changed. One of my few friends saw this and told our teacher I remember running out of the school crying my eyes out and seeing my teachers sympathetic eyes. When I got home the school had called my mom, I ran into her arms. I cried the rest of the day. I was so scared to go to school the next day but I still went. I know her intentions were right but I wish it had happened diffrently. My teacher had this huge talk in front of the class about what had happened the day before. I still remember hiding under my hoodie crying as the class looked at me. About two years later I transferred schools nothing extreme happened at the other school since that thing. I was just going into a late french immersion school. The first day there no one bothered talking to me. The only reason I made some friends was because I was the one to talk to them. Things were good the first year. But the this year things changed, my friend decided that hanging out with me wasn't good enough for her and that she was to cool for me. She ditched me every lunch our to go with these other girl.  At first I went with them but I soon realized I wasn't welcomed. My friend came back after a few months apparently they weren't the nicest people. I wasn't alone I had some other friends but they weren't that close to me. Things went well for a few months I joined a basketball team no one bothers to talk to me, they just ignore me and let me sit alone during breaks and games. Recently, my friends have been talking behind my back, leaving me for those same girls they did months ago but this time it's all my friends. I sit alone at my desk as my friends hangout and talk to those girls I try to join but I'm always turned down. I know I shouldn't be friends with these people but I don't want to be alone. I cry almost every night thinking of it. All my friends I know I do have live to far away. I know my story is not as bad as most but it still sucks and hurts knowing your so called friends are ditching, talking behind your back and that people are not bothering to get to know you. I'm not saying my life totally sucks because dosent I do have friends i know I can count on but like I said their to far away.