Hi. Remember me? Yeah, i bet you do. I'm that girl who used to be your classmate in elementary , the girl who used to sit in the corner of the room duting highschool. Who never tried to mingle with you and your friends., that girl who used to have few friends in college. The girl who used to pretend to hear nothing everytime you make fun of her.YuP! It's me!. I think you rememberit clearly now. . I just want you to know how much pain you have caused me. How much it affected my life, on how I look at things, how I behave with the people around me, and especially on how I look at myself. It was HELL. Those words you used just to make fun of me haunts me Everyday. You are the reason for those tears and nightmares everynight. and the reason for wanting to just stay home just to avoid you..ALL of you. While you were laughing, I was dying inside. The "Me" i know wasn't even there Anymore. .Then I started to criticize my self, started to tare down my confidence just like what you were doing to me. You made me think that the only word that I can describe to myself was "WORTHLESs". I can still remember your Every Exact Words. And your EXACT Names who have caused me so much pain for many years. You dont know how much it took me to regain myself again. Even until now.. bec u still have stolen some parts of me that I think I would never have again, and for an exchange you have given me a really big insecurities... Sometimes it is still hard for me to believe in myself until now. And I still blame you for all of those *tihS* that I feel. All those years I have kept it for myself, I never even told anyone about this, not until today. Yes. I Was Bullied. You didnt noticed it bec it was a different kind of torture. They have tortured me emotionally until it was inevitable. It was really hard, but fortunately I chose not to be eaten by your criticism, I surrounded my self with my loving family and friends. I also realized that it is not me who is Worthless, it is YOU. If you are wondering if there was a time I thought of taking my life? Well my answer for that is N0, I would never take my precious life for some no good people like you.Would I forgive you for all the things you did to me? I can't really answer that right now... and I dont even think you would apologize for it anyways. What I have learned from all of this is that, I have learned how to love myself more, to be strong and to fight for myself whenever I need to, because there will and always will be some people who would want to see you in your worst. Be strong, just believe in who you really are, do not let any one destroy you. Finally.... For all of those people who did all of those things to me (you know who you are) may you embrace KARMA with an open arms.
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