My entire life I felt different from most people.. I got teased some in junior high and high school but In grade school, I was honestly the only one who invited the "fat girl" as she was called, to my birthday party. I was the only one that did invite her to a birthday that year, & I couldn't see, inviting everyone else and not her.. Other kids asked why I invited her to my party and I simply said my mom made me.. So I made an excuse for my kindness at a very young age by lying to others...sad but true.. Yet I probably atleast made the girl smile for a day. I also always tried to be friends with new people at school.. Sometimes we would stay friends sometimes we wouldn't.. I just like to be nice to everyone and didn't really push a friendship with anyone.. Unless they wanted to be friends. I did not do well in school.. Infact I hated it all of my life. But I graduated late but graduated. I was different.. I am different than most.. Maybe we all feel that way.. Idk.. But I never trusted many people still don't..had issues with parents that let me down often.. But now as a 30 something woman with 2 kids a great husband and a nice home, a job I work hard at & make pretty good money at, most people that had been mean to me don't have all that I have now.. Not that I'm better than them but I think I made good choices for myself unlike them..maybe I don't know. But my point is, we should all be more kind to others and don't let people ruin YOUR own life! It maybe hard sometimes.. I know it is but school is not the end, things can get better if you make your own good choices in life. I couldn't learn like other kids in school.. I had ADD.. Which back when I was in school was unheard of..but as an adult I now know I had it. So I always tried to hide my "stupidity" from others.. Now knowing I wasn't stupid.. Just different..if I am/was stupid.. Then how in the world could I be making good money at work and have a wonderful family (2kids) and a wonderful husband? My brain works differently than others.. Guess that's why I was picked on in school so much & even treated badly by some teachers.. One liked to embarrass me and even grabbed my face in front of the entire class and made fun of me because I couldn't do the math work as fast as everyone else in class so I would hide it in my desk.. She dumped out my desk full of unfinished work and grabbed my face and screamed at me.. (I don't remember her words to this day, just her reaction to me struggling along in school) no help just bullying.. From a teacher... I was embarrassed.. I was hiding my stupidity again.. Or so I thought at the time.. That was a memory from maybe third grade... So am I so stupid if I remember that from so long ago? No I was just different, Just one story I have more but this is a lot I wrote already.. Just please know we all probably hurt and if you are hurting don't let it define you.. Reach out to someone an adult a teacher anyone that you can be a friend with.. Make good choices in life. Also sometimes the bully's have there own issues they maybe hiding behind & bullying to feel better about themselves and that's just how some people work.. I knew people that made fun of everyone and enjoyed it.. Because they then would feel better about them self.. Sad but true.. So in conclusion: I tried to be nice to people when ever I could, still do and I always felt like I had to hide my learning disability, sometimes still do, I was bullied some in school because yes I was different ..I acted out was a rebellious teen , but moved out of town as an adult and I lived and learned at my own pace.. I like myself.. Don't know if I always did.. But life can be good..Guess I will end this story here
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