My name is Ashley and I'm still in high school. To this day I am still being bullied for being handicap and for being an outcast. I'm always being told I'm not good enough, I'm a freak, dumbass, loser, and all I feel like I can do is sit back and listen to what they have to tell me. my parents and family don't believe I'm being bullied and I have no friends to talk to. I always think if weren't born sick and handicap I would have friends that cared. ever since I walked into my first day of pre-k is when the hurtful words started. I was one in a wheel chair and was always on a machine called a vent to help me breath because I could not breath in my own. I am still on the vent but only when I sleep, the vent goes on a breathing tube that will always and forever be around my neck sticking out like a sour thumd. I walk around school with a nurse to watch me to make sure I don't hurt myself. But that don't stop the bullying, it only made it worse. To this day I'm the weird goth girl that people just push around. I don't know what do to anymore. the bullying is keeping me from my study's, it's keeping me from being hapkeep all it's doing is makeing me depressed and putting me in a dark place. They make fun of me for something that is not my fault. But I wonder who's fault was? Why did it have to be me that go through this? Who do I blame? And who can I talk to? it's not just the people in school that bully me. It's also the dark "wondering why" thoughts that bully me, constantly running in my mind, having to wake up every morning to four walls and a machine I call my chain. Wondering why is all I ever do now. But for my family that loves me I keep a smile my face.