Why me?

I am 19 years old, I have been picked on for mostly all my life. The hardest times weren't even in the classroom. Some things that people said about me included my eye. I used to be lazy eyed, until I got surgery and got the muscle tightened, people would call me "crazy eyes". I was told I was a waste of five minutes of my dad's life speaking, of course, about my conception. I was excluded in some school group projects. However, all these things don't compare to some of the other things I went through dealing with my own cousin. He is eleven months older than me, and all I wanted when I was younger was to be included in his group of three friends. Well they would make fun of me, go off and leave me, tease me about my eye, one of the kids even named a kitten he found Andrew, because it was cross eyed, and his mom laughed about it when she heard that. My cousin got on top of the roof and called me outside and urinated on my head. They got a laxitive (remember I was young) and told me it was generic Hershey, and of course I ate it and was sick for a while. They still have in their possesion a video of them giving me wegies, and throwing me outside in the snow in nothing but my underwear, and when I knocked on the door my cousin threatned me because "he didn't want me to wake Granny up". One time I followed them down the street, and they told me not to follow them, and Devin said, "Hopefully you are going to YOUR friend's house, because we are going to hang out with OUR friends". Basically saying I wasn't welcome. I walked in Devin's backyard one time, and they all were sitting around, and when they saw me they said, "Well, right when we were having fun." Basically saying they were having fun until I showed up. Most of the time I would just ignore it and then go cry, but I believe in God and am a really big Jesus freak, so He has helped me out alot. I can honestly say without Him, I would have ended it. I don't like talking about these things, and I really don't share it with a whole lot of people. Thanks for reading. And whether you believe in God or not, this is for you. Jesus is speaking in this verse, by the way. John 16:33, "These things have I spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.

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