Hello. I get bullied...a lot. My best friend bullies me. She calls me fat and ugly. She thinks its cool when she "cuts." She uses a pencil  I use a knife. I have two friends. One i already told you about and the other is a guy. He gets picked on a lot also because he has long hair. I have a boyfriend kind of...I dont think he really loves me he makes me cry, he hurts me so much. He broke my heart but yet i still date him. I dont dress "normal" either. I buy most of my cloths from Hot Topic and i have red hair. I hate myself so much i wish my life could end so bad but i know people love me so i dont. My brothers friend calls me fat and he makes shure to tell me that every time we talk. I get bullied at school mostly by my best friend but also from a teacher. She thinks i am a "sin." She gets me on trouble when i do nothing. She makes up lies and i heard her and some of the other teachers talking one day and i heard her call me a ... a fag. That killed me. I told the school administration people and she wasnt even fired for it. A few weeks ago some one very close to me killed himself. It hurt me so much it felt like someone doped a bowling ball on my heart. But he left a note for me telling me he loved me and that he will see me in heaven. His soul keeps me alive.