My name is David Schwartz. and I'm 26 years old. I'm an upper senior in Queens College, studying for the field of advocacy. I have ADD, Asperger's Syndrome, and a learning disorder. I was laughed at for all of my life, at first for my small height in elementary school. But when I grew into a six foot man, bullies took a different approach, and swindled me of my money, tried to take advantage of my kindness, and I suffered abuse of the worst kind from other kids in High School. It was only near the end of my High School curriculum did it seem to stop, when I became tougher and stronger, not only physically, but as a person. For all of my life, I've been the butt end of a joke of Spaceballs' quote 'may the Schwartz be with you'. People think its funny, when, in reality, it's not even anywhere close to it. I've had bullies put me in Cobra twists, which is a wrestling move used in violent wrestling matches. I've even experienced a time when a psychotic girl assaulted me, which made me afraid of women, when I really shouldn't be. Because of the latter event, I feel when a woman says she loves me, it will only lead me to even more pain. But in reality, I really want to experience the love of someone special. Later in my life, my supposed two best friends from High School betrayed me, leaving me questioning myself if I'm really worthy for having friends at all. I have also never had a girlfriend anywhere in my life, something I've become used to, unfortunately, as I have never experienced a woman's kindness in the form of a loving relationship. Others gloated about my singlehood in my face. And I've had to deal with my Asperger's Syndrome and social awkwardness getting in the way of my pursuit of meeting women of the best kind. All of the women I've met said they were taken, that they weren't looking for a relationship, told me stuff relating to the saying that they wouldn't be caught dead with a fatso like me, and other things relating to my body ratio and weight, my social awkwardness, my ADD, my Asperger's Syndrome, my learning disorder, my crooked teeth (In reality, my teeth grew so strong that the alignment got misformed) My teeth are also stained because of an antibiotic that I required when I received a multiple scars from an accidentally, and bloody, self-inflicted injury, something bullies, and everyone else, pointed out without hesitation, much to my sadness. And everyday, I kept cursing the world, and god, for my misfortunes, in the foulest language ever conceivable. When will this ever stop? Please, I urge that EVERYBODY know about my story.
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