I struggled a lot in High School with my sexuality, not whether I was gay or not, I knew that I was but whether it was worth revealing.  I was already bullied a great deal, never physical which I suppose can seem lucky in a way but the verbal abuse was also mentally damaging.  I always had a few solid friends and they were a good foundation so I felt strong and like I could handle it, I was always saying "I am fine" and "It doesn't get to me" which I genuinely believed myself.  It wasn't until I left High School and realized that when faced with the real world it had really taken it's toll.  I had zero confidence, I almost believed what everyone had told me, that what I was, was something to be ashamed of.  And this was a huge 180 from who I am.  I have always been strong, and opinionated and up for life and these select few kids who had troubles of their own and decided to turn it into something negative were ruining that and taking something from me that I loved.  So I just stopped it, I went to college and I forced myself to socialize even if I was uncomfortable and today I stand so proud of myself because I am back to who I was, and I am so blessed to have realized that.  I want to help though, I know that although my pain felt real it is nothing compared to some out there so if you read this just know you are so beautiful and loved.  I don't know you and I love you.  There is always that inkling of hope that you never know, might be right round the corner.  Just stop and breathe and think about where your life can take you if you just give it a chance.  I know its hard to believe this all if you are in pain but I beg you, take the time to let life surprise you.