I never fit in as a kid. I was awkward and funny looking. I was the first kid to have divorced parents and was teased because I "had no father." Ah rejection hurt.

I am of mixed race so I was called the N word alot. I was bullied because I wasn't black enough or white enough. I wanted to change my face. I was chased everyday from school. My lunch was stolen so I stopped eating.

To be cool, I drank vodka on the school bus and I was admired until I drank so much, I almost died. Another reason to be an outcast.

My biggest secret...that I was gay.  All I felt was shame.

Today, I work in mental health and I am an amatuer model. I am helping people so that they can overcome the feelings of no self worth that I had too. I wish the bullys could be helped too. It has to stop.