All my life i have been pushed around chosen last and kicked to the curb with no friends. in forth grade i was abandoned by everyone that i though liked me but i didn't realize the full extent of it. Later on in middle school i was told no one liked me no one loved me i was never going to amount to anything and i should just kill myself it was a constant thing i began to believe all the words people said to me they physically hurt me and teased me they would always group up on me and i didn't know what i did to deserve it i constantly wonder what i did to provoke them to be made fun of to have no friends and i fought my social disorder know as autism i tried to be nice tried to interact to everyone to people who were getting bullied but they would turn on me to i didn't know why the teachers would see it and not do anything to help they pretended to ignore it so around 8th grade i gave up i grew depressed i had anxiety i stopped talking to people cause i was afraid of getting bullied when i did that my social skills slipped i had a hard time adjusting back to people so i gave up i starting meeting friends online like Xbox and people who supported me and liked me so that made me feel like i was wanted but when i went back to school i was always told that i was no wanted not loved after all the time and me not talking and being shy they still bullied me and i didn't know why so i stopped going to school and my grades started to droop and i came back to school and my school career was ruined my social life was a mess it got bad i prefer not to talk about what happend after it is to hard. but i met a school club and i found that i liked it people didn't pick on me i didn't feel like a social outcast i tried to get more social and it helped, I endured through school and i found some confront. then the cyber bulling started i started to agian belive it was my fault for being shy little akward but i tried so hard and nothing worked my only friend was my dog and she is the only being in the universe that i felt actuly liked me and cared for me. I met a friend and he helped me and i don't hate my bullies but i will remember what they have said to me and done to me over the years. I will not forget so i can help others around me that are getting bullied so they will never feel the same as me i would hate for anyone to feel the same. One friend can save a life.