I was bullied for the entirety of my school life, most significantly in secondary school! In my first secondary school people would cyberbully me by making fun of these photos of me that I had up on my MySpace and would steal them of my profile and put them up on their MySpace profiles without my permission where all their friends would make cruel comments on them saying how ugly I was and how much of a freak I was. They also spread a rumour round that I had my period in the school's swimming pool which went round the whole of my year. This was obviously untrue, but these bullies were determined to keep on humiliating me as even after I left the school they continued to torment me about it on formspring by leaving really cruel,hateful, anonymous messages saying stuff like: "ahhhhhh can't believe you had your period in the swimming pool you freak!" And when I told them to shut up and leave me alone as it was stupid they'd respond with: "well at least I don't have my period in the swimming pool hahahahaha!" I remember in school at the time people would keep approaching me asking whether this rumour was true to which I said no, but they would still be sniggering and sneering at me and shouting it to me! These nasty bullies even wanted to spread the rumour into my new school after I left as they told their friends who went there about the rumour! I was so depressed in that school as I ended up with no friends as nobody wanted to hang round with me, the dominators of the groups I hung round in hated me and strictly forbade me from hanging round with them! Some of my so-called "friends" who ditched me even came crawling back to me when they heard I was leaving! I left that school a few months into year 9 due to the bullying and aggressive hostility I was receiving. It was all deeply disgusting, as everyone would say that I was disabled. They would just say it without having any confirmation on that I was, they all just presumed I was and spread it round that they knew that I was for fact "definetly disabled." This was incredibly unfair as I wasn't even disabled, and even if I was it would still be a horrible thing to make fun of someone about. When I moved to my new school things did not get better at all. It was an all girls' school where I was prone to an awful lot of major bitchery! Just a few months after I started a huge group of angry girls stormed into an unsupervised library which I was in and suddenly cornered me, bombarding me and verbally attacking me with lots of aggression! It was very humiliating and horribly overwhelming! A big fat chunk of the bullying, however, took place on Facebook. These horrible bullies would make sarcastic comments on my photos saying stuff like "OMG you look proper gorgeous so jealous girl!" These bitches would constantly comment on all my photos at the same time and like each other's comments! Some of my friends even told me they were doing it sarcastically and they always made fun of me so it was all pure out of spite! The worst cyberbullying I've ever received was when this girl who I didn't even know added me on Facebook and I ignorantly accepted her. The second I did she popped up to me on Facebook chat saying: "eeeee look at the state of you! You do know everyone's messing with your head commenting on your photos, I mean come on girl you're a f**king joke! You annoy me by being so ugly! You are ugly and that is the truth as there are loads of people who will agree with me! Ugh, you think you're proper stunning don't you but in reality you're nothing but a f**king fat ugly wreck who needs to get her teeth sorted and some plastic surgery on that face as it's looking a little rough!" That was definetly the cruelest thing anyone has ever done to me! I just don't understand how people can so easily be so cruel to someone who never did a thing to them! This girl continued to troll me on Facebook as she commented on my status the next day shooting out a load of foul language at me very aggressively! My first 6 months at my new school was by far the worst time of my life! Everybody hated me as they kept claiming I "caused shit." I was really immature,ignorant and careless back then but I never did anything to intentionally harm or hurt anyone. Everyone in my year turned against me. Even my "friends" who I hung round with didn't want to be friends with me anymore and were very sick of having me around and kept looking for excuses to get rid of me! This was very reminiscent to me from my last school. Girls in school would approach me, aggressively shouting at me saying: "You've only been in this school for 5 minutes and already your causing shit for everyone! You little shit stirrer!" All the malicious,spiteful,cruel girls would continue to make my life a misery. This one girl who bullied me messed up my uniform and the second she'd finished the teacher came out and screamed at me for my uniform being in that state and told me not to come in the classroom until I'd sorted my uniform out! Instead of owning up to the blame, this girl just sniggered and went into the classroom with the rest of the class sniggering smugly! These girls would continue to make a laughing stock out of me as they would crowd round me at lunchtimes pressuring me to sing or dance for them! Even when I said no I didn't feel like it they were determined not to give up, as they would stay there for at least half an hour forcing me to be their torture monkey as the crowd would grow bigger as time went by, with more of their friends joining the crowd there to support them! They would look for every chance to humiliate me! This one other girl took a bad picture of me and sent it to everyone on her phone, as well as putting it up on Facebook. Some bitchy girls even filmed me on their phones stupidly dancing and put it up on Facebook and YouTube where it got lots of snide and sarcastic comments. I obviously really regret dancing for them now, but ofcourse that still doesn't make it acceptable. Another time on Facebook, this boy who I didn't even know added me and yet again I ignorantly accepted. He then would not stop terrorizing me and ofcourse was friends with all the nasty girls in school who bullied me, who supported him with it. He also got the bad photo of me of one of them and put it up on his Facebook profile without my permission and encouraged lots of spiteful comments. People were commenting on it about how much they were laughing at me. School and Facebook where the worst for me. In school I could hardly ever go into a room without being scoffed and sniggered at or whispered about. These girls would move away from me whenever I was sitting near them and openly criticize and badmouth me. Although I left school a while ago, this has lead me to post-traumatic stress. What definetly didn't help the post traumatic stress was the fact that I saw one of my chief tormentors in college just last September where she called me over repeatedly and although she never said anything particularly spiteful to me, I know her intentions still weren't good. She even asked if I missed her, to which I stupidly politely said "yeah I guess." Although I shouldn't of. I should've said the truth, saying "NO, why would I after everything you put me through?" I was really annoyed with myself, as I didn't even look or sound confident either. I now feel like I've let those bullies win me over, but I'm not going to let that happen next time I see any of them, I promise, I vow. Bullies seem to think they're higher than anyone else, but in reality they're the lowest of the low. I am against bullying so much and can now really deeply empathize with anyone going through the experience of being bullied as well. Frankly it's downright cruel and disgusting and there is no excuse for it whatsoever! I hate it and the next time anyone who bullied me from school approaches me or calls me over or does so much as scoff or sniggering then I promise myself and everyone on here that I will actually stand up to them!
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