One day, I moved to Jakarta Indonesia. I was very happy when I got home. the next day is the first day of school. I got a lot of new friends there. but 15 of them are women. and the rest were male nerdy and shunned. I am not ashamed to be friends with them. and at week 2 my school, my face was photographed while sleeping in class, and they upload their photos to the web. I was very shy at the time, I was shunned and ridiculed often fun. they look very happy at all. I really want to commit suicide. I can not stand anymore. and I made ​​a video about life in Jakarta and want to leave this school for suicide. and one of my friends saw the video and called my mom to come home to. and my friend went to my house and find me. He found me in the bathroom and I was crying. and my friend threw a bottle of pills. and motivates me. the next day I moved to another town called Bontang in East Borneo.