My name is Monica , I am now 18 years old. Graduated from high school.. What people don't know is how still hurt I am I've been bullied all my life ,shocking right , getting laughed at because of my high, my teeth, my clothes. Well pretty much everything about me. Had to go at school not knowing if this day will be a good or a bad going to our locker room to find out all your "friend" talking about you laughing about you is hurtful ! But I didn't have any other friends so I even though they were hurting me I wasn't caring until I started to get letters to go kill myself and phone calls from those person that had problem with gaming and stuff .. I was 12-13 years old I didn't what poker was ! Anyways my mom tried everything she could to make it stop never really happened police couln't do anything either the school since it wasn't nothing really major nothing to take care off at that moment so my parents decided to move in another town thinking that it might change so we moved when I was 14-15 years old only 3 more years to go not that bad I'll get new friends, a new life opportunity was given to me ! Obviously you grow up your body change mine happened right when I moved people we're looking at me diferently and being a new girl at school for the what we call " popular girl" didn't liked the fact that I was new. So there it all started again saying I was a whore, a slut .. That nobody wanted me there I should go jump over a bridge, go kill yourself .. Going into my classes and people was calling me slut in the classes. My parents knew about it but not how bad it was how much it was hurting me I didn't want them to know and think that I'm always complaining so I went to see the psychologist at my school ! He did help me a lot about how I felt .. Making the teacher putting me in a seperate class so I can to my homework and stuff.. After a couple months there I met an amazing boy that I felt in love with back then and thats when they started to talk back to me to be my friends obviously like every teenager .. Everyone want to be in the popular gang be loved by everyone ! Obviously they just like me because I had to be woth them because of my boyfriend when we broke up a year and a half later they all again started to say I was a slut and all those stuff again in my last year Of school I was completly alone.. Didn't have nobody to sit to for dinner, nobody to walk with or to even talk to I became do depress I just stopped going at school. Stop seing that one friend that I had out of the school because I could'nt deal with it anymore I was way to negative to be around people. I still received txt laughing about how low I was for quitting school, how afraid I was! And I have to admit it I was deadly afraid to see anybody from that school and my mom was tired of hearing me crying all day long staying in my room barely talking to them and not having a smile on my face .. I started writting a letter about how much I loved my family but couldn't do it no more and I was ready to leave and its when I wrote it that I realized I was letting them win and I won't be leaving the family that I loved for people that couldn't care less about me. So I stopped thinking that I shouldn't deserved my life, my precious life. My mom one day came back at my house and she looked at me and said it's today that its gonna stop and left.. She came back from school the principal from our school decided that I will be graduating with the grades that I had from the last test that I did , won't have to come back at school and I wouldn't have to do those final exam either that I didn't have to be afraid to go to school anymore that I was done with it ! Nobody will understand the release that Felt off my shoulders when I heard that !!! And all those bully got into her office and they've been aware that if they ever talk about me again or bully me again that it WILL be on their criminal files with the police .. For once yes for once someone was doing something for me ! Some people will say that I let them win and the school just helped me ! Yes I did let them win I let them take the most precious year of my life my last year of high school but they didn't win me ! I learned how life was precious, how my family loved me and who was my friend which nobody was and still nobody is ! And I can say I'm proud to have no friend because I have an amazing family and amazing boyfriend that loves me and an amazing life ahead of me! Watching that movie made me cry a lot and got me sooooooo mad at those bully. But that's what make us stronger , well that's what it made me stronger ! I admit it, I'm still afraid sometime probably will always be but something that I know it's I will never ever ever ever let someone bring me that down ever again !! I know it's long but I felt like I had the force to share my story to other people and to show that you are not alone ! There is someone somewhere that will always be there for you and if not well I am here for you and you are a strong person xoxo
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