When I was in high school, I was at the bottom of the ladder. There was no physical bullying but I was invisible, until someone decided to point out my flaws or make fun of me. Compared to a lot of other people, I had it good but it was still hard. I ended up harming myself and still struggle with the issue. When people found out it got worse. For years it continued. I lost so many friends because they didn't want to be seen with me and the bullies used this as ammunition. I left high school two years ago and everything just got better. I disassociated myself with so many people from high school. I learned to love the parts of me that people laughed about. It's not an instant change, it does take a while. But when you get out of high school you discover people who share your quirks and have been through similar things. You stop being an outcast and you start to find where you "belong" in life.