When I was 5 I moved to a different state and when I moved there, I moved to a different school. Everything seemed fine until my 6th birthday party. I invited my whole class. They all came and thee one I needed to impress wasn't impressed. My theme was music and she didn't like it. The next day she started making fun of me because of the music I liked so I stopped listening to Rock n' Roll and started listening to Christina Aguilera, Maroon 5 etc. I started wearing more bright colors such as light blue, hot pink and orange. When I was in 4th grade, she started physically bullying me. I didn't want to tell a teacher cause I knew things would get worse if i did. The year ended and I got my parents to transfer me to a different school but I didn't know hell was waiting for me there. The first day of the new school was fine I met three new "friends" and after a month or two, I realized that they were just using me because I was new and didn't know who they really were. They were the people you needed to stay away from. I decided I didn't want to be their friend if they wanted me to be like them so I left and hung out with two other people. After two years I couldn't stand my class so the school held me back but that class didn't help at all. They acted like I was a nobody which I was. The next year, I met a girl who lived around the corner from me and she showed me Black Veil Brides. I got so attached to their music, I started believing that I was dark. I stayed far away from people who bullied me for years, I stayed in the shadows in public areas and when I was with my friends, I quieted down because I was afraid that I would say something stupid. A couple months after listening to Black Veil Brides, I started listening to more bands like that such as Pierce The Veil, Sleeping With Sirens, Motionless In White, New Year's Day, Motley Crue, KISS, All Time Low and Memphis May Fire. I got so obsessed that I didn't realize what I really wanted. I wanted to be like them. When I heard a lot of them were coming for concerts, I got a ping in my heart also known as jealousy towards them when I heard their songs. I told my only friends at school and one of them started making fun of me because I found out why I was jealous. I wanted to be like them and I couldn't. But my ex-friends made it harder for me to do so. She and I got into a fight and since then she's made my life a living hell. She's literally Santaness. I don't know what to do and I need help. Can someone out there help? I need it.