I am a very timid person ever since I started school. I also have Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD) and I take medicine to control it. Well, because I'm shy I didn't have any friends. People thought I couldn't talk or was mean and hated everyone. I joined a small group because two of the people were nice to me but they never talked to me and the other people basically shunned me because they didn't trust me. This was only the beginning of my lonely life because when I got to high school things got much worse. I led a boring life, still barely talking, not having any real friends. My life tumbled into a chaotic mess though. I quite my sport that I did for nine years and joined my schools play. There I met some new people and also met a guy who people thought I should date.. I was pressured into dating him and neither of us liked each other at all. (At the same time I find out that my family was moving..) But it didn't help that another guy was hitting on me and doing everything in his power to get me to leave my boyfriend and be with him instead. He used mind games on me to get me to do what he wanted. If I hadn't moved states he probably would have raped me...which is terrifying for me to think about. All of this drama being thrown on me so unexpectedly and my mind being weakened by that guy caused me to be depressed. I was also developing an anxiety disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, anorexia (because I stopped doing my sport), all on top of my preexisting ADHD. I resulted to cutting myself and starving myself and wearing minimal clothing and caking on too much makeup. I looked and left like a monster. It wasn't until two years later did I stop cutting and starving myself though... And it was about that time that I reasoned the medicine I take everyday might be the cause of my suffering. However that's another story. Now I'm in college and my roommates are constantly pressuring me into drinking and doing drugs... Sometimes they shove alcohol into my hands and force me to drink it. Other times they just try to talk me into it.. Even people I don't know try to pressure me into partying with them. Everyone makes fun of me for not drinking! I'm constantly bullied because of it! I'm glad I've been able to stay strong though. I'm also made fun of for my obsession with Harry Potter and reading books. Even my friends say I am annoying because I like to talk about Harry Potter and books... I still haven't found some solid ground where I can be myself besides my home! And I'm rarely home now with college... I hope I can find a good path to tread soon. This is my story. I hope whoever reads it learns a thing or two and remembers to stay strong.
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