I have been bullied and sexually harassed in my past year at school. I recently switched to Sage creek High School and i loved it there. Then on March 2, 2016 i was admitted to the E.R. On March 3,2016 in the evening i was transported from the E.R. to Aurora Behavioral Health care. I was suicidal. In the past i have cut and thought of killing myself because i didn't want to hide it anymore. I felt alone. I know that people love and care about me. I could be around my best friends and family yet still feel so much pain.  I know that i am wanted here in this world and i know that i have a purpose, but in the midst of it all i felt so alone. And i didn't know how to deal with it. I didn't know what to do or how to tell people and when i tried to tell people they didn't understand. I was tired of faking a smile every freaking day and acting crazy and hyper because that was the only way i knew how to be happy. Fake, that's how i describe it. And i was done. And that's what made me want to end my life. I'm tired of being someone i'm not. My advice, tell someone, don't be afraid to get help, because i didn't. and i ended up in a place where i never imagined myself. Stop being silent, speak out and speak up. it's the only way. We shouldn't have to end lives to show people the pain we are feeling. We shouldn't have to cause other people pain and grief for our own actions. Happiness, that all the world needs. Share a smile, speak up, say hi, because it can really make a difference. I would know, because i've been a victim myself.