i was a freak. i was different i was goth i got made fun everyday and ridiculed because i liked being different and of course no one else liked it. i became a cutter at a young age i didn't know how to deal with my problems and i didn't tell my parents because they fit in everywhere and even though i know now they wouldn't have made fun of me i felt like they would have been ashamed to have a child who was so different from them. i had anger issues from being bullied and one day in class a kid was picking on me like usual and no one stood up for me not even people i thought were my friends because this kid was a cool kid. i snapped and i blacked out and held the kid by his neck off the classroom floor. when i came to everyone was staring at me and i noticed my arm band that hid my scars and cuts had slipped and all those were exposed. people began telling to go ahead and kill myself that i wasn't wanted around anyway and for a long time i thought about it. i decided the bullies wouldn't win and began helping others who were being bullied by starting rumors about myself so that kids would leave them alone thankfully it worked and it gave me the strength to stop cutting because now i had a purpose a way to let things out but i still struggle everyday with it. even as an adult i get bullied for one reason or another but i can now turn to friends and family. i am telling you this so you understand that bullying has a real affect on people and to in couraged you to get help from friends, family, teachers, or pages like this. they want to help. let them!