From the time I started middle school, I was bullied, a bully, and a bystander. I was called names daily and got attacked on social networks. By 8th grade, I was cutting and contemplating suicide. To make it even worse, my freshman year, I realized I was attracted to girls and I had no idea how to tell my family. Once I came out to my mother, stepfather and sisters that I was lesbian it felt as if a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. But once the people in my school caught wind of this information I was bombarded with harassing statements and rumors daily. I informed my teachers and principal almost daily and was told the same thing everyday, "Sorry, but we can't do anything unless they physically harm you. We have no proof that they were the one who actually said this." So, I moved to California to escape the unfit environment that no one was doing anything about. I had to be someone I wasn't because my good Christian family on my dad's side wouldn't even accept me for who I really was, a lesbian. There I was still bullied for being different and even for being a 'good girl' or 'crazy Christian' even after I had hidden the fact that I was attracted to girls. Even at church I was bullied for being to shy and for being the new kid. I was bullied everywhere, no matter what. My way to cope with being bullied was to become a bully. I turned into a total hypocrite about being gay, lesbian, or bi. I even got to the point to where I was hating myself for ever finding girls attractive. But one day I woke up and realized that I wasn't being a good person and I was doing all the wrong things. I started to accept the fact that I was, and still am, lesbian. I had to learn to love me the way I am because I couldn't change how I felt. I then started to become friends with the people that I bullied after I made amends with them. I was a changed girl forever. I now let everyone know that I am lesbian and that I love myself for who I am and they should to, no matter what others think. Now, as a Junior in High School, I want to take a stand finally and let other kids know that even saying mean and dishonest things about people does effect them, even when you don't think they do. I want everyone to accept to truth and embrace it!(: