In the movies, high school isn't what it's played out to be. The outcast isn't left alone. The outcast is teased, bullied, the target of hate. In my school...I'm the outcast...and I'm always the center of the hate. There are other kids who are bullied but none like me. I always had the will to stand up to my bullies but I never had the voice to do it. I can talk, scream, sing, but I don't have the courage. I'm made fun of for my looks, the way I act, the way I talk, what I like and love, etc, etc. It gets to me sometimes. Several times I've wished for my life to end. I've contemplated cutting myself. But, I don't have the courage to do it. I promised myself that I would stand up and fight for what I believe in. As Andy Biersack once said "Stand up for what you believe in...even if it means standing alone." I find myself standing alone a lot. I have friends but most of them aren't true. I want everyone who is reading this to know...that it gets better. As Austin Carlile once said "It gets better. It always gets better. Life will never put you through more than you can handle." I know that once the razor blade runs over your skin, the physical pain knocks out the emotional pain. Yeah, I understand. Yeah, I've never cut but I know that the physical pain feels better then emotional. It sucks. I'm bullied, teased, pushed around, and people try to control me. I'm not the prettiest girl, I'm not the smartest, I'm not the skinniest. But I will tell you one thing....I'm strong. Not physically but mentally, emotionally, I am strong. I fight for what's right even if it means standing alone.

If you ever need help, if you ever need someone to talk to, advice, etc. I'm here. I practically know what everybody is going through.

Family problems.

Friend problems.

School problems.

And any other problems, I pretty much know what you're going through. Please don't do anything you'll regret.

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

With much love,

Alyssa Prepodnik