I do not know if i have had it as bad as any other but here i go. I just turned 16 yesterday and not many people i thought would remember , didn't. I have been isolated by much people. I have been bullied since the end of elementry in 4th grade. Now i am a junior in highschool and it only got worse. Right about now i would be okay with more of being teased instead of something this big. When i first started getting bullied it would be because i was the one who wanted to hang with the pretty girls when i was fat,4eyed, and ugly. Atleast thats what they would call me. That is where my insecurity started. Over the time in 6th grade where i started at a new school i was nowhere compared to other girls. I was flat chested and got teased because of it. I would stuff my bra but it was noticible.. It got worse so i began to cut myself but that only made it worse. Walking down a hallway being called "emo girl" i would rather hurt myself than be hurt by others words. Atleast that is what i would tell myself.. I got my first real boyfriend at that school amd fell for him quickly. I didn't know what it would be like and i of course thought i could trust him. He would ask me for pictures and i gave them to him. It was little mistake like that to give a whole new image of me. He showed them pictures off like if it were okay. I got the new names thrown at me in less then a second. "hoe, slut, skank, dirty bitch". Private phone calls began and never stopeed. It got worse each year the rumors would be more serious. They got to the point where they say i sleep with every guy i meet. I'm quick to give up my pussy. How i sleep everybody. 4-9 th grade was hell for me i never could stopp thinking about what everyone thinks so i began to have anxiety attacks often. I have tried committing suicide 4 times already and i am always stopped... 9-10th grade i broke down. I lept being strong too many years and the bullies finally won over me. I didn't want to go to school i couldn't talk to anyone. I kept inside a bubble and went into deppression mode. I lost 2 greaat bestfriends over all these rumors... 5 years of being bestfriends went down the drain because of all these rumors about me. They were embaressed of me. Aside from bullying i do not have a perfect family. My parents are divorced and i still cant accept it ever since i was 4. Up to this day at 16 and a junior i am bullied constantly. I can't make new friends because my past and bullies eventually swoops in and takes over. I still have suicide thoughts and i'm trying to be stron but i am on a thin lace here. Any minite now i can be gone forever.
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