By 5th Grade I was constantly getting bullied. By that time you really start growing, and my voice started changing that year, and while it was changing it would be kind of high pitched. So i was constantly being called a girl and being called gay. I had nobody that year, because nobody wanted to be laughed at next. So I was alone. One day I even took a. (Fiance now) knife and was about to slice my throat, until my brothers girlfriend who I consider a sister walked in and talked me out of it. Then by 7th & 8th grade. The names and threats got worse. I was being pushed to the ground in P.E and the coach just watched. Then being threatened to be thrown in lockers and so much more. Here lately, at lunch, I was sitting with my best friend who I picked back up when her best friend left her, these two boys started sitting with us and flipped the table a little bit and flipped our food all over us. Nobody cared they just laughed at us. And even a rumor about me "punching my best friend" started, and thats where I draw the line. I would never do that! Why is life so hard? Why is it always me? I always wondered but all I can do is keep moving forword.