I'm currently in the 7th grade at Blaine Elementary School. Last year when I was in the 6th grade I've done something I regret to this day. I sent a picture of my entire breasts to a guy that I thought I could trust and cared about. It was in March, on a weekend he said he was alone and would delete it. He was with a bunch of friends and showed them all. But he did delete it I hope. Then on Monday, I was late so I walked into the class late hoping nobody knew. They all knew, rumors went here and there. The whole 8th, 7th, and 6th grade knew all of middle school. Even some 5th and 4th graders knew. It got to everyone. Nobody would talk to me that day. They all told me I was a stupid bitch. How I was ugly and they don't know why I sent the picture. They called me a slut, skank, whore, hoe, they called me everything in the book. Then I started to hurt myself by cutting, 2 people found out then told the teacher. Then ALL of the teachers knew and ignored me and treated me different in a weird way. But they told the counselors, they then talked to me and tried to "help" me. But it didn't help, I yelled at them. Over and over again I yelled, screamed, and cried. Then the guy whom I sent the picture to, got suspended one day. They as well suspended me because I was in pornography. I hated it. Then I thought people were over it, till I started dating a guy from Bell (Who used me cause he thought I would give a Blowjob) they went back at it AGAIN. I got told I would be 16 and pregnant, I got told I need to stop talking to guys cause I might give them aids. They told me I was a slut again. They wouldn't stop. Then I didn't have much people to talk to either, either they thought I was a slut or their parents wouldn't allow them to talk to me. So I had to do it alone so I told a teacher which told the counselor. But no help happened whatsoever. They let it go. It hurt. They kept doing what they did, till the end of the year. Where the guy whom I sent the picture to tried hugging me. I let him, then he texted me and asked to have "fun" in a sexual way again. I said no this time. But during the summer, I have got probably over 50 phone calls which I had people tell me I was a slut, bitch, fat, ugly, whore, pimple face. They called me everything they knew. It hurt. They told me my legs were to big, I was flat, my face was ugly and everything. But now honestly some people mention but not a lot, I have a lot of friends, and they all moved on from what has happened and I am so grateful for that. Even though here and there I get called ugly, fat, thunder thighs, beaver tooth, lizard face, I try to get over it. Yes I do still self-harm myself. But now it's less. I am feeling a bit better. Well I think I can learn to stand up for myself now. That photo was a lesson.
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