I've been to many different schools. I've never really been able to call someone my "best friend". I've had a few attempts to open up to someone but all they do is tell everyone else behind my back. I get bullied for hanging out with guys. Not many girls like me and that's cause I'm the freak that's bisexual and likes Iizard's and used to cut myself. Guys really didn't care about that. They don't gossip. They enjoy the moment and not care about drama. I used to be the one that never gets a C on my report cards and had small glasses and perfectly picked up hair and that no one paid attention to unless they wanted to cheat off me. I've always tried to be nice and be friends with the outcasts but always seem to take their drama. When I entered Middle School, I joined the wrong crowd who would always fight and cause drama. I used to get chased and everyone talked behind my back... even my 'best friends'. When I left in the middle of 8th grade year, I went to a different school and was called a freak from day one. All girls hated me for being 'pretty' and called me a whore since the first week even though I never wore shorts or skirts and im a virgin. Now I'm in 9th grade and when I walk down the cafeteria aisles, I can sense everyone staring at me and laughing at me. Last week, I got a anonymous message saying "Kill yourself. You're unwanted." I went to as therapist a week ago also with my mom because of me self harming. I haven't gone to my complete breaking point, but you never know.