I grew up different and I always knew it. I am hald white & native american so I didn't fit in either groups. I was bullied since the day I walked into a school for the first time. I went to a native school and I was the only "white" girl so bullying became my life. They said I was ugly for my freckles, my skin color, my pimples and for being too skinny. People who look at me today wouldn't think anything like this could happen to me but I dealt with alot of bullying. I was beat up by an old friend because she couldn't stand that I wasn't close to her. I've been in 5 fights my whole life and I'm only in grade 11. One girl I didn't even know her name and she told me I should go back to where I came from, I never understood her remark because I am and always have been from my reservation. two years ago everyone I knew called me down and made me feel worthless because I finally came out of the closet. I'm glad i did but their words put an emotional pain upon my shoulders. I'm a cutter and I can't quit no matter how hard I try.. people just stare at my scars with a disgusted look like I'm just a self-mutilated freak. I lost all my confidence in grade 1 and I still don't feel good enough.