Call me ANON. It all started way back a few months after high school started, I thought everyone was my friend but I guessed wrong. They all hate me. I'm bossy, immature, sensitive, over-reacting, lazy, slutty and fat; so for short an ugly bitch. I had a group of friends who I thought would be with me high and low cliche, right? but one time, my friend went to a vacation and came back a week later but then to not join our group anymore. I didn't know why and I didn't try to find out just yet. But when one friend of mine joined another group and came back bringing with her that group, that's when it all started. I didn't know I was the subject of their gossips since I was the "out of place" among them, they were famous, I was the attention-seeker, I was the ugly, they were the pretty ones. I didn't mind it at first because I wanted our friendship to stay intact, not slowly falling apart. But it did, one time during an event in our school our teacher got mad at the students who stayed in the classroom and I helped my teacher since she asked me too and told me to not leave the room unless it was locked and I waited for the students who our teacher got mad at finish what they were doing (they helped since the teacher already got mad at them), I told them to go faster but I don't know what was with the tone of my voice that they misinterpreted me and thought I was angry at them but in total actuality I wasn't. They started calling me names, that I couldn't force myself not to cry. That wasn't the only time, there was a time I asked my classmate where I should put the table since the room where we got it was locked and she "where should you put it, dumbass? You're rude, can't you see I'm doing something here and you don't have the manners to respect me?" and what she was doing was just playing with her phone. I couldn't keep it in, I told a friend from the other class about how I was called rude and ill-mannered even though she was the one who always talks about her boyfriend and shouts nonsense and speaks foul words. I wish to tell more about but these are just some, everyday until now, they are doing this. And all I could do is smile and wait for class to end, but even the friend I thought I have thinks that she is just forced to be with me. I don't know what to do, and what's heavier is that my parents don't trust me. They think I lie all the time and they hit me every time I don't do what they tell me to do especially my mom. I don't know why but even when it hurts, I smile. Even when they don't stop, I smile. I'm no masochist but I have no choice but smile. Everyone hates me, they think my attitude is very terrible, they just don't know my problems. But you wanna know something? I still smile.
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