"Your daughter looks just like you, she's so beautiful". I get that a lot from my mother's friends, and I don't mind because I need to know that I'm not a nuisance on somebody else. I am a 17 year old senior in high school, and it's been years worth of hell inside and outside of school for me. Firstly, I am an athlete, I played volleyball for my school's team (manager now). Secondly, I try my hardest to be nice to everybody and step outside of my shy shell because I realize I can't be in there forever. It's times like these that I wish I was so much different than I already am, here's my story. It's the summer of 2014, and instead of me being out with friends, I am in a wonderful program that selected 16 high school kids to do an internship about science and how violence effects our community. I honestly love this program because it has taught me so much. Now me, I'm a very quiet, observative, and reserved person. Partly because people always have something negative to say about me or that I just rather keep to myself. I talk to SOME of the other kids in that program, but not many. Today while we were in the midst of an activity, I noticed a group of 3 females looking at their friend I was talking to and laughing. They were laughing at me because I am a big girl who does have a little double chin. It wasn't a hee hee ha ha moment, they deliberately sat there staring at me doing gestures with their hands to imitate my chin. I usually don't take offense to things because literally people find ways to pick me apart. This was different because I see them everyday we're at the internship, never bother them or say anything bad about them, so for them to be so arrogant just got to me. I don't understand why people love so much to pick someone else apart because they don't fit everybody else's standards. I would be rude to pick them apart not even knowing them or their story, but I don't because I learned that everybody is different and we should respect and accept them the way they are, my mother taught and continues to teach me that everyday so I won't ever forget. I personally think I'm a down to earth perso, considering I try my best to please everybody and make sure that everybody is happy and well taken care of. I've been trying since the 4th grade not to care about what people have said in regards to my looks or weight, but it is extremely hard when every time you progress, you get pushed back. I try to live my life as if yes I know I'm a big girl, But if that's all you see then I can't help you. I don't have expectations for a perfect world, because that's just so far gone that even Cinderella knows that her glass slipper was stolen by the prince. I just genuinely wish that people would stop judging others and leave them be for who they are. It's so agonizing living in a world where people that don't know you think they can pass judgement as if they are the spitting image of perfection.
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