I have pretty much always been odd girl out.  Girls turn their backs to me when I would approach their groups, even in religious groups which you would think wouldn't do that.  That made it even worse.  But when in school, I was bullied/beaten by a gang of girls, who I did not know, they took away my confidence, tore at my sirt,  called me names whore, bitch, etc... punched me in teh face,  pulled out my hair out to teh bloody scalp, held me while  other punched me in the head.  I was younger than them , I was only there  at that location due to wanting to  take the regents exam.  The Police  foudn me innocent, and a victim, two of the girls could be identified by the police, and they received  Juvenille criminal records, adn some update after that as well. I never went to get the updated forms. It was enough to go to the POlice station to get the first ones.  I have faught against bullying since then, made it my mission to help change wrote wongs, held awareness gigs, and helped  gain signatures to pass the Jamey Rodemyer anti Cyberbullying bill which passed in June 2012.   I have helped with  Merilees March for mental wellness,  altenatives for  Battered women" Celebrate Hope" event  at  Temple Brith Kodesh,  Stand up guys, step in and speak out event by MOnroe County  gov.w/ Sen. Robach and County Esceutive Maggie Brooks,  and much more.  I have given away hundreds of my cd " I Don't Care" and performed at Western NY Mental wellness coalition confference , w/ Kaitlin Monte Miss NY  2011,  recipient of the Upstander  scholarship inStaten Island with Senator Klein,. At the beginning of this year I was bullied which set me in a tail spin .  There need to be more positive things to  help kids after these things happen,  because you  get angry and hopeless.  It takes quite a while to  get  unwound.  This effects your entire life- it doesn't go away , it's how you work to help yourself through whatever means.  For me it has been my music but sometimes even music doesn't help.  You can turn against those who have always been there for you, your thought process is  tainted about who is who. I like to be busy helping others and writing for hope.  I hope to make something of myself  and help others .  I thank  kaitlin MOnte for her work, she works hard to make a difference and I am proud that she  was proud of me and my work.  These thing shelp to continue.  Please remember everyone, what if it happened to you?  What would you want others to do for you?   Stand up and stand out! be a positive role model against bulying, abuse and for suicide rpevention/awareness. Join the group on FB  that I  started after my event at teh Lovin Cup March 8, 2012 .  I was very fortunate to have friends and family help me with the event as I had just gotten out of the hospital, my then Health teacher, my mom and dad, relatives, neighbors, Lovin Vup, local govt, Bob Zinck, The Swooners,  441 and Juniper Green, Annie Lane, Jim Lane,  Lori Parker Esq. Merilees march for   mental wellness, LIfestream, Tony Jordan,  Jerrard Johnson  & Swat Kids  Think outside the box, I will help as I can- Tivoli = i lov it !  The Skye's the LImit!!!!.