My name is Amber Hope Warren, and I'm 15. I go to my local high school, living life like thousands before me. When I first entered school people thought I was weird and unacceptable. My "friends" hid from me on the play ground. I switched schools where a whole new problem began. I was teased for my love for horses, my favorite animal. I had a wild imagination and to make up for the friends i didnt have I have imaginary horses. They were my friends, all exotic breeds, all so nice to me. I was teased and called a freak. "They arn't real!" kids would scream at me. See, even in the first grade we had a social order of things. And I was at the bottom. The people I thought were my friends just used me to their own advantage because I would do anything for them. By the time the fourth grade hit they stopped teasing me about horses and started on my weight. I watched and allowed all of my self esteem to roll away into a deep cut in my heart. I was so young and sure i had a hard time running and keeping u in soccer, but that didnt mean I was fat! One day I was in my PE class, with all my bullies, and the gym teacher called me in. He started making fun of me and my physical abilities. All of this was said while the overhead speaker was on for the gym. When I walked out of there, tears in my eyes, it seemed like every single person was pointing and laughing. I ran to my mothers room, because she worked in the school. When she asked him about what happened he told me to get over it. My mom was trying so hard for me. I was just the odd ball out. I decided that if no one was going to like me no matter how much i tried to change myself I'd just be who i felt i was. I always had an appreciation for the gothic things, the un known, and the darker things. Well, that started a new round of bullying. I left my school after 7th grade and started in my local school distrect. I was happier. Sure I was called Monster Girl and Satanic but I had people like me who loved me for who I was. I had teachers to support me. I was never really physically bullied there. I was awarded the opertunity to go to my local private school due to achedemic ability. I was bulliied out of there within two months. I stayed home most of the time to avoid it. I missed three weeks of school in a row. I was bullied for not being Catholic, for being Goth, and for being Bisexual. I didn't admit it there, I knew I would be kicked out. When I was getting things out of my locker a girl in Prada heels kicked me in the small of my back, telling me I wasn't supposed to be here and more important people needed to get their things. I reported all these forms of bulling to the Dean of students who turned around and told me, "Gonzaga Prep does not  have bullies. You are lying to me and your mother about these instances." I couldn't stay. I moved back to my school district and found my friends, only they had changed. These people who were once so proud of themselves were oppressed by the masses of conservative high school. All of us are Bi, most of us are Goth, and for the majority we don't seem to cre what happens to us. Sadly we are picked on for holding hands, laughing and kissing eachother, something that we did the year before but had never been questioned. Even now as I walk down these green halls I find no security in them. This place should be safe but it isn't. Just last week we had an assembl for Anti-bullying. Now its a joke to people. Serious things like using "Gay" or "Retarded" as slang is now joked bout even more. It breaks my heart and I want it to end. Until we find a way to make it etremly punishable for being a bully nothing will ever change. Sadly, this is the only future I can see.....