When I was a child, I felt like an outsider. I've seen people come into my life and then, vanish into thin air. They included both friends and family. Beginning high school, it was a weird transition for me. On one hand, I was doing great in school and completely engrossed in my studies. On the other hand, I isolated myself from any social interaction. I looked at life systematically, instead of being open and free with it. Later on though, I was able to make the transition from introversion to semi-introversion. I sought the comfort of friends for support and normalcy. But, some people in high school were able to exploit my insecurities and utilize them to appeal to their own vices of bullying. Exploited for my frailness and my unwillingness to defend myself, I was bullied. It put the fear inside me. To ignore the pain, I forced a smile on my face and waited for somebody to come to my aid. Nobody ever did. I felt frozen in time, while everybody else seemed to be living each day to the fullest. I left my senior year in high school feeling incomplete. But, I mustered every bit of hope and came to the assumption that my college experience would be different. I was wrong. During my first night at the suite with my new suitemates, I was handcuffed to the couch and forced to beg for my release. I was thrown around like a rag doll. People told me that I was weak and not worthy of life. I was embarrassed to confide in anyone about my troubles. I pretended that my college experience was what I dreamed of rather than what reality actually provided for me. I realized that the problem was me.
You must understand you're not alone. I've resolved my problems. I overcame a life once built by insecurities and confusion. I channeled my negative energy through basketball and running. I learned to love again. And for once, I feel in control. I'm here to answer any questions and help those who are in need of a friend.
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