Lifetime Effect

From the time I was a child, through high school, and even up until the last ten years, I have dealt with a Narcissistic father. So my experiences with being bullied about things began from infancy. My self esteem was ruined by the time I entered grade school, and I believe that's what the kids latched on to. There were several kids in grade school (then Jr. High, then High School) who made it a point to taunt anyone who was different. I was different. I was also very sensitive, which made me a point on the radar. I developed PTSD by the time I was seven. I didn't remember (and still don't to this day) most of my childhood, and I was so traumatized I began to run away at the age of nine. This lead to years of being on the street, put into worse situations, starting drugs as a teenager to escape and try to find somewhere to "fit in" and "be loved". I never finished high school, though I did get a GED. I wasn't able to complete college, or work, or do anything "normal" due to the PTSD, severe anxiety, and lack of self-worth. I was in and out of hospitals for attempted suicide. I wasn't even able to pull myself together until after I was I was 40, after 40 years of being bullied and pushed around by others, and after 15 years of therapy. I'm still not all together, but I'm doing a hell of a lot better, now. Bullying has a lifetime effect on people.

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