I went through my whole life being bully, but I wanted an education so I just pushed through. I have special needs nothing major I can stay in regular classes I just need extra time on test, so I leave the room during test. Also, I have a hard time processing information so I have to go home and really study information and I never did extra school activities because of this and because of the bullying. I had friends in elementary school, but in middle school when the clichés stared I lost all my friends as they joined the popular group and I was told I was not cool or pretty enough to join that group. So all through middle school and high school I had no friends. I'm very shy so it is hard for me to go up to people and try to make friends and since I got picked on so much it was even harder to make friends. I was overweight and I didn't wear the clothes from the popular stores (Abercrombie, Aeropostale, Hollister, etc.) because I was to poor and I would get made fun because of that. I would try to get to class before anyone else because when I walked into class the popular girls would say out loud her comes sasquatch, the big girl, or other horrible names. When we did group projects I would have to do mine alone because no one would want to work with me. I would sit at lunch all alone and that was very hard for me because people would make a lot of fun of me for that. If I had to much food people would make comments to me about that too. I walked to school because I lived only a few miles from school and when people drove by me they would shout mean things to me outside their window. Then with my learning disability I heard things about that too. If a teacher called on me and I got the question wrong people would make a nasty comment and call me dumb and say I will never make nothing of my life or get a career. When I sat in class guys behind me would throw paper or spit balls at my head or say ugly names at me and say I would never get a boyfriend or get married. I would get pushed in the hallway, but I never got a lot of physical abuse most of my abuse was verbal and mental. I had problems at home too, so with the home problems and school problems I started getting really bad depression that at age 24 I know have with even more mental illness I have now. I also tried to commit suicide a few times when I was in high school and thankful never ever went through with the plan just wrote the letter and had ideas. In 9th grade I wanted to drop out of school, but my parents wouldn't let me do that. I never told my parents much because I didn't have a good relationship with them so I just sucked it up and spent a lot of time crying in my bedroom alone. I still have a lot of issues from the abuse that I'm working on. The thing that I did to get by it is I know I wanted to get an education, so I just pushed through those torture years to graduate. I even went on to college, which was hard because I still had no friends but the abuse had stopped thankfully and now have a Bachelors Degree. My education years was torture I won't sugar coat it at all, but I'm glad I pushed through it and I didn't let those students when by running away and hiding and now I'm hear with an education and hopefully one day have a job oh and I also have a wonderful boyfriend who I one day will marry and I am also a little skinner than I once was. Thanks to that abuse and other things I counter over the years I know have mental heath issues, but oh well life goes on. I suggest that if anyone else is being bully fine someone to talk to I wish I did that. I didn't have my parents, so I wish I did fine someone to talk to, so that is the advice I would give. Don't let it get to the point of suicide because that is never the answer.
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