So I wrote out my story in a poem kind of way, here it is:
If you think you know me, you would know the fluffy stuff
Like that I was born on January 23, 1995
Or you would know that my favourite colours are blue, purple, and black.
You may know that I have two siblings and I have a cat.
You may know that I have a YouTube channel and I'm pretty good at making videos.
If I do say so myself.
But
That's only the surface to a really deep pool of life I call ME.
So
Of you really knew me
You would know that I'm afraid of the dark - no, terrified.
You would know that I've had panic attacks for seeing my own shadow in the dark - but that's another story.
If you really knew me,
You would know that I was sexually molested at the age of two, and again at the age of 16.
But you would know that I hate sympathy. I find its overrated.
If you really knew me, you would know that all throughout my years at public school that I was bullied heavily,
And you would know that homeschooling saved my life.
If you really knew me, you would know that out of despair I tried self harm,
And to would know I haven't it done it since that one day I started.
If you really knew me,
You would know how many times I've come close to attempting suicide
You would know how many letters I've written telling them not to miss me when I was gone.
BUT
if you really knew me,
You would know that I'm not that same girl I just described
Even though she is and always will be a part of my past.
If you really knew me
You would know that I've forgiven my assaulters.
If you really knew me,
You would know that I was never mad at God
And that may confuse you.
If you really knew me,
You would know how many lives I have saved by just loving
And I don't say that to be proud, but humbled
If you really knew me
You would know that my greatest wish is for everyone to be loved
As I was loved.
If you really knew me
You would know that I am a child of God
And He is my father
If you really knew me
You would know that I have the BEST parents
And an even better relationship with them
Of you really knew me
You would know that I love my siblings so much
And you would know if you ever hurt them you have to go through me.
If you really knew me
You would know that I stick with my friends through everything,
Even of sometimes they get mad at me for getting help from their parents sometimes.
If to really knew me
If you REALLY knew me
You would know that my dream job isn't actually videography or photography
But helping and loving people.
In any way I can. No matter how tough.
If you really knew me
You would know I cling to Gods promise of everlasting life and eternity with Him.
But that's if you really knew me
Now that you've just skimmed some of my secrets dreams and fears
I have one last thing to share
I love you. Because Jesus. Loves. You.
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