I'm a bully - I was bullied

Hi I'm Camille. 

I'm 15 going 16 and when I thought the world was just this dark and lonely place, I finally found the light to my tunnel. I don't want to just overcome my experience with bullying; I want to stand up for everyone else who needs it.

I'm embarrassed to say I used to call people names back then - just because I knew there was something they had that I didn't. I thought maybe calling them names would make me feel better, and it did. I felt comfortable under my skin just because I used my insecurity to pull everyone else down. And then, we moved to Australia.

I came off cocky and my attitude was a mess - I was bullied. I got called names, balls were thrown at me, got told I was too smart and got made fun of for it. I'm a small kid, 4"11 and everyone else was 5"10 - all their smirks and laughs scared me. It was unlike me. My self-esteem was low as it could ever have been, I cried myself to sleep. I was ashamed to tell someone what I was going through because I didn't want them to take pity on me, so I kept all of it to myself. I kept it in, held my feelings back. Until it came to the point when the mornings scared me - the thought of going to school scared me. I'd wag my classes, skip school, faked sick, even hide in the bathroom stalls for a whole day because I was that scared... and then I knew the bullying I did back then, backfired.

I suffered from stress, depression and anxiety. But I'm finally getting through.

I'm making it up to the kids I bullied, and I'm finally standing up for myself and I'm trying to stand up for everyone else as well.

If you've been bullied, this is me saying sorry in behalf of them... No one should ever go through being bullied - no one should ever waste their tears over someone else's insecurity. And if you're a bully, this is me telling you to STOP. If you think it makes you cool, think about this: "Does driving someone to killing themselves make you look cool?"

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