In third grade I was called names and made fun of for the clothes I wore. Soon, the bullying escalated and it turned to physical bullying. I was beaten up for not "fitting in". My friends all left me because they got bullied for hanging out with me. I felt so alone and abandoned. I couldn't handle the pain anymore.....so I turned to self harm. It made the pain go away for a while. In fourth and fifth grade nothing really changed. I was still bullied. I had also stopped cutting for a while due to the fact of me cutting to deep. In sixth grade things got worst though. I was made fun of a lot and often told to "kill myself". I then started to self harm again but this time people found out. I was then sent to the crisis center. over the summer I found out that someone had made a hate page for me on instagram. if constantly told me to "go die in a hole" and called me names. I soon fell into deep depression. I'm in seventh grade now and things haven't changed. I'm still cutting and each time my cuts get deeper. And in all honesty I've lost all hope. I don't see the point in trying anymore. every time I do try I still get hurt either way. I'm on medication for my depression and am trying to make things better. over the years I've learned that even if I try I'll never be good enough for society. Well this is my never ending story. hopefully this will all end soon.