Why can't I just be accepted for who I am? I have a unique personality just like anybody else. The unique thing about it is that I'm different than everybody else. I am my own me. Everybody teases me because I'm "weird" or "ugly" or "fat"... I've even been called the "b" word. I try to be everybody's friend. I try to put a smile on my face. But do you realize that a smile is not only a facial expression, but also a mask to cover up my emotions. It's not like I've ever been able to go tell an adult other than my parents about bullying. In 1st and 2nd grade kids were taking my lunch and I couldn't do anything about it. The lunch monitors and teachers didn't care. In 3rd and 4th grade I was always called weird because I played kick ball on the playground with the boys instead of on the playground hanging out with the girls; the reason why: when I tried to hang out with the girls, they wouldn't let me play and when I finally stood my ground and did what I wanted, I was laying on my back at the top of the slide while two girls stood on my hair to keep me from going down. In 5th grade, do you think I had anymore friends than I did before? Nope. In 6th grade, I met this girl who I thought was my best friend. Guess what! She just took advantage of me. I'm a person that is forgiving. She slapped me and hit me at lunch and in various other places when I would do something that would "annoy" her (ex.:try to talk to my other friend who sat on the other side of her at lunch)(?) She also asked for me to buy her lunch bc she had left hers at home so I was a good friend to her and I bought her lunch and then went hungry. Well when the time came around where I forgot my lunch money at home she couldn't bother returning the favor with a 10 lb. lunch bag... I also got teased by kids because I wore the same colored shirt everyday (my school has uniform dress code). I also was teased bc somedays I would try to make my self look nice so I did my hair and makeup and it would get ruined b4 I even got to 1st period. Whenever I just try to be myself, I'm ignored or told I'm annoying. I don't get it? Am I supposed to just act like everybody else and not have my own personality? I didn't know it was illegal to be DIFFERENT! I come home crying bc of bullying and I cry myself to sleep sometimes when I think about it. Somedays I've thought about running away from home bc I don't want to have to go back to school. I wish people could realize that I am the only me... And that no one should EVER try to change that.
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