It started since Kindergarden i was a shy child and i had a few friends but there was always a bully to pick on me and made me cry and back then i didn't tell anyone , i didn't know. Then i stared Primary (elementary) school and i didn't have a lot of friends and i was again always picked on because i was quiet and shy .Afterwards i transferred to another school and it got better.But now i am in Secondary ( High) School and in the first few years i thought it was good and ok but now in the third year i am being picked by the the guys . And the girls that i thought were "my friends" turned out to be liars and the always talk behind my back and in anything i try to speak up to get people to notice me i am always not seen or heard or anything like that and sometimes i cry myself to sleep again because i thought no one cared not even my family as i am not close to my parents and siblings . They also always don't understand me and they never listen that why i always feel sad it is because i feel like no one is listening to me ignoring me not caring . Like they don't care how i feel when they bully me though it is not as intense as the bullies in america but it still hurts to feel like no one cares and the only friend that understands me that i trust is at the other side of the world and i feel it makes me feel a lot worst that i cant meet her and i have no one to hug and help me in this time of need ... but is it getting better as i stand up for me self and telling me teachers i am still frquently emo but i am now much more happy and i am not annoyed by up beat happy songs ( i am a music person in which the songs reflect how i always really feel ) . so yeah