My name is Marija, I'm from Croatia. Beeing bullied is common part of my life. Most of my childhood I remember my father screaming, on slaping one of us. First thing I could remember is that I'm pretending to be superman and having fun, and sudendly my father explodes on my brother slaping him and saying 'What have you done idiot' my brother trying to escape to his room and knocking the picture from the wall where my father pushed his head in, he managed to escape,... I was maybee 4 years old. Another thing happend when I was 5 some club my dad was betting on started to play, told him that it's gonna lost... when that club lost my dad came in my room shere I was playing with my dolls and slapped me saying That I can't say which club is gonna to win and which one to lose, but I was only five I seeked for his atention like I kbowed which club is better.. When I was maybe 10 my father started to beat my sister i don't know reason I think he found out she was hanging around some drug diler, I remebmer my mother screaming No, you gonna kill her. Next borning she had black eye, brouses all over her body,... My mother has stolen some money from him and his friend he hit her and she now lives with her parents. I'm not in good realashionship with her, I live wih my father I love him no matter what. Ok sometimes I'm scared of him like when I get sime bad grade or when I do something what I'm not suposed to, but I know that he only wants to me or my siblings to become better person, to be more sucesfull than he is. I know that he dosen't harm us ob purpose, he only knows that way he dosn't know how to stay calm, he only knows yelling and hitting, he was yeld at, he was hurt by his parents. My mother may not done us any phisical damage like my father did but she damaged us emotionaly which I can't forget her. I know that I have to forget her to be able to find my inner peace., but I can't. She damaged me more then anybody. I was also bullied at school, they called me fat, ugly, .... It hurt, I guess that I eat becouse of all that stress. I'm not that much fat I have 80 kg and 175cm so I think I'm normal. I havent told anybody my story yet, I just want to say it to someone to fell presure free. and I tried to commit suicide couple of times, but I only tried to drown myself and cut the air comming. I didnt tried to hsng myself, or take pills becouse I'm scared of my fathers reaction if I faile to kill myself. Sorry for gramatic errors, I learn enhlish in school. Marija