I have always been over weight. I hated it, I espeially hated it when other kids would taunt me. If I spoke to a girl she would be taunted because she was associating with me. I had rocks thrown at me, I even, one day under the guise of friendship was peed on. I developed a hard exterior that as I grew older I put on a persona to be accepted by people, all the mean while the emotions I had were hidden from everyone around me. I started developing self destructive behaviors, excessive drinking, drug use, and all the associated risks that comes with that behavior. Even, as I grew older I would self mutilate. Hiding the cuts under my arms pits where no one would see them. Fortunately my girlfriend at the time who had dated a marine with PTSD said that she saw some of the same behaviors in me and pushed me to get help. Currently I am in therapy and at age 30 I'm finally learning to trust and connect with people again.