I'm 36 years old and still having a tough time getting over the bullying I experienced from my youth. In fact, I was taught to accept it and as a consequence the people who I have became friends with have not been the nicest or friendliest people in the world. In grade school I would regularly be called fat or ugly or stupid or poor...etc. My only defense was to stand up for myself but back in my day "bullying" wasn't really a thing so if you "stood up for yourself" you would end up being as guilty as the people who instigated everything. Multiple times after sticking up for myself I was beaten up by groups of people and as a result was suspended from school or given detention for fighting when all I really did was take an ass whooping. In gym class a couple of different times the students would steal my clothes while I was showering and either toss them around the locker room while calling me names or throw them into a dumpster or a toilet. Again, if I'd retaliate and cause a scene I would be punished. Maybe the worst case of bullying against me came at a party during my senior year when a "friend" thought it would be funny to put a date rape drug into my drink. I remember feeling a hazy feeling before passing out. After I passed out I was violated in the worst of ways. The kids at the party stuck a turkey baster up my ass and put eggs, ketchup, chocolate syrup and whatever else into the baster. I was also doused with a fire extinguisher before being thrown into the shower and dropped off at my front door step for my mother to deal with me. Great friends. I lost this just because I want to get this pain off of my cheat. I want to heal. I want to have the strength to stand up for myself and pursue healthy friendships and relationships without the fear of being hurt. Please people, young or old do not bully. This stuff can stay with someone for a lifetime. Thanks for reading and posting my story.
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