Ever since i was 4 years old ive been bullied and im 13 now ive been called everything bitch, whore, slut, thot, idiot, stupid, dumb, freak, lardo, skank, fat, ugly, trash, a waste, meth smoker, cunt, loser, attention whore, and that i stunk, and other stuff but i cant quite remember but its still unacceptable. Im a cutter ive had  suicidal thoughts and attempts when i was in school i would get pushed around i would get pushed down i would get laughed at im not like other girls i have a little bit of weight but then i got home schooled but its continuing on facebook in groups im in. I try not to let it get to me but its hard i had a boyfriend and once i got so suicidal i was saying my goodbyes then he came into my life and he didnt know i was suicidal at the time but he somehow talked me out of it and he has helped me and saved me ever since but we broke up he called my cousin hotter and called me fat ugly and stupid said he would choose her over me and now he said he loves me and he was tired and stupid i dont know if i should take him back but when i was in regular school i would come home with cuts and bruises up and down my arms and legs i was taking 10 showers a day i was red my mom asked me why and i told her with tears in my eyes why and she pulled me out of school but now i get bullied at home on facebook and i cry myself to sleep at night. I thought i had friends they all turned their back on me stabbed me in the back plugged a dagger through my heart.