Carlos (misused and abused gay)

My name is Carlos. I am currently 19 now. Throughout all of elementary and Middle School i was constantly teased and taunted. At first when i 6 years old, in the 1st grade,  it just started because I was a foster child. I was told I will never have a mom and that I was worthless. I think was was worse is that not only did I get bullied by kids at school, but also by my foster mom, both mentally and physically. I was scared to go any where or tell anyone, so I just stood quiet. I would always be by myself and never talked t anyone. Every so often a group of kids would come up to me and call me names and tease me.

When I was 8 years old I finally met my mom and left the school and moved in with my real mom. It seemed like everything was fine and that everything was going to be alright. But in 5th grade, it started up again. This time it was for something worse.

When I was 12, I figured out I never was interested into girls. I found out that out my fifth grade year. I had my first crush on a boy and I didn't know how to feel about it. Many of the other boy noticed some of my manners were weird and not normal to them. I would have a very feminine type of voice and look. Boys would tell me I looked like a girl and that I was weird.

When I moved in with my mom, I found out that she was Christian and was very devoted to it. She had got me and my other 2 sisters into it and wanted us to be raised in that environment. I learned that such things as gays and other things were sins, and were despised by God. I had heard my parents say thing about gay and other things of that sort and I knew that it was wrong. But when I found out that I was attracted to boys, I tried everything to change myself.

In 6th grade, I was always called so many names; like faggot, homo, gay, and a lot of others. I was always pushed around. I thought by trying to get with a lot of girls would help, but it only made things worse. By the time 8th grade came around, i was always refered to as a homo or pussy. I was constantly made fun of because of being gay. I was afraid that if I fully came out that it would get worse.

By the time I went to high school, no one cared about gays, people at my school believed that people should love who they want no matter what. People were more mature about things that went on. I over came my fear and shared the real me. People accepted me for who I was. When I was the "Bully Project" video, it reminded me of where I came from and what I was able to over come.

No child should be afraid to show who they are, it only makes them fall deeper away. It's a scary feeling to feel like you have no one there to bring you up. Leaving someone to feel like they"re nothing doesn't you better than anyone else. People make fun of others, and bully others because they are not what they call "normal". But the truth is, there's no such thing as normal and there never will be. Normal is defined as ordinary; the same as everything or body. Everyone is unique in their own way and has every right to sow their uniqueness without judgement or criticism.

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