The bullying started in second grade.I was never "skinny" but i also wouldn't call myself "fat". But the other kids did. they called me names like fatty, pudgy and most of all, "the fat girl." I could handle the name calling. i got over it eventually. But then in the 7th grade things got a lot worse.My mom and dad separated, and that put a lot of pressure on me being the oldest to help with my younger brother and sister when my parents were at work. It never really helped that they never wanted to listen to me, and the fact that whenever my brother didn't get his way he would lash out at me and say very, very hurtful things like you fat pig, go die, mom and dad don't even love you, you're a horrible sister i wish you were dead, or even, I'm going to kill you! Then to top it all off, when my mom or dad would get home from work my brother and sister would tell them what a horrible job i had done, then my mother and father would yell at me, saying how the expected more out of me etc. etc. But then the people that you would expect to love you the most act like they don't! My mother comes home from a long day at work and instantly starts screaming about i had done something wrong and then it escalates to her telling me i was the biggest mistake ever and i ruined her life. That is when i started to cut. I'm made fun of at also for being a cutter now. This stuff continues to happen, I'm still being bullied ,and still cutting, in the 8th grade i attempted suicide. Now as a freshman, i am once again, being bullied, and cutting. When i watched this movie i couldn't help but think through my sobs , how these kids were being bullied on a whole different level than i was.It made me think i ignorant i am to be sitting at home crying over my problems when they're are kids in worse state than I'm in about to commit suicide, and how selfish i am for being such a baby about my own problems, and for that i am truly sorry. to all of you out there being bullied, there is ALWAYS a reason to live! I know you may not even know me, but if anyone ever needs to talk i am here. i will listen. Some one is always there.
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