I was never a victim of physical harm. I was never hit, kicked, or attacked. The only harm inflicted upon me was done so by myself.
Since 2nd grade, I've been avoided. I'm weird, I scare people, I'm the bug girl. I grew up never learning how to approach people, or make friends, or stand up for myself. Instead I just faded into the background and ignored people, isolated myself, stayed in my room after school instead of going out. I ignored the names, but they still hurt. I ignored the rumors, but still heard them. People would talk about me, even if I was right there, so I walked away. I didn't have support at home, so I turned to the internet. So at 12, I turned to a dating site to find support or acceptance, or even just someone to talk to. So at 13, the only people I hung out with were men 20-25, because the kids at school were betting on whether or not I had a penis. Because no matter what I did I never lived up to their standards, no matter how much I copied them, or did what they told me to.
And now at 16, I'm still avoided and ignored, but I care less. I still don't know how to approach people and make friends, but I have no desire for friendship. But I will not tolerate any harm, either physical or emotional, being done to myself or anyone else. I will never allow my children to go through what I did, because I will be there for them, and I will teach them right and wrong. And if they ever have problems, I will never make them feel like they are at fault. Instead, I will sympathize. I will be a good listener, and I will do everything I can to help them. And I'm asking all of the parents out there to do the same.
By writing some words below, you are showing your support and letting everyone know they're not alone.